I was listening to Michelle Branch on the way home from the bookstore and realized that I am absolutely in love with her "Hotel Paper" cd. I originally thought I liked "The Spirit Room" better because it was more poppy and peppy and less encumbered with the "I'm in love with a married man" theme. But as I drove in the dark, singing loudly to Michelle's emotionally torn past, I realized that I liked the complicated nature of her lyrics. It's obvious she was conflicted about falling for a married man. She wanted to be with him, but at the same time, you know, he's married. And I could identify with the "I want him. I want him not." feelings. Which is probably why I felt the need to sing for so loud and so long tonight.
Now don't get me wrong, I've never fallen for a married man, THANK YOU GOD, but it's so totally something I could see myself doing because I'm just that stupid. It's one of those irrational fears that I have. Seriously. It competely terrifies me. For no good reason. I think I've just made enough mistakes with enough guys that I figure nothing is off limits anymore. Which is good and sad all at the same time. May that fear keep me far, far away from future stupid relationship-py decisions.
About Me
- Cora
- Hi. I'm Cora. I live in south Texas. I'm married to the hottest redhead around and we have the cutest child ever. He was born on April 3, 2009 and he is perfect in every way. See also: ADORABLE. I finished grad school in July 2009, but my big plans for that degree are to admire it on a shelf while I stay at home and raise my handsome little boy. I like reading and try to do it as much as possible, though I'll admit the internet steals a lot of my book joy. But reading blogs counts, right? I enjoy iPods, obese cats, Sharpies, Burt's Bee's products, and Johnny Cash. I've changed my name and those of my family and friends in order to protect the innocent, because I'm just that cool and so are secret identities.
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