I sometimes wonder how my life would be if I hadn't moved to my current state of residence. I live farther north than I ever wanted to and sometimes the dull winter and dark gray skies overwhelm me. I swim in a sea of melancholy and drink deeply of misery.
It was actually warm the other day. Yes! Warm! Actual heat! With sun! And I was immediately transported to NOT here. I was back in college. Where you could afford the luxury of an outdoor nap on a blanket. Or memorize sonnets while watching frisbee golf. A place where I felt loved and safe and known.
Here, I am only a girl. A strange woman-child who takes on too much and fails often. There is so much failure and disappointment and heartbreak in my history in this state. And I wonder, should I move on?
About Me
- Cora
- Hi. I'm Cora. I live in south Texas. I'm married to the hottest redhead around and we have the cutest child ever. He was born on April 3, 2009 and he is perfect in every way. See also: ADORABLE. I finished grad school in July 2009, but my big plans for that degree are to admire it on a shelf while I stay at home and raise my handsome little boy. I like reading and try to do it as much as possible, though I'll admit the internet steals a lot of my book joy. But reading blogs counts, right? I enjoy iPods, obese cats, Sharpies, Burt's Bee's products, and Johnny Cash. I've changed my name and those of my family and friends in order to protect the innocent, because I'm just that cool and so are secret identities.
1 comment:
I get those "winter blues" too but they more resemble the "kill-me-now-I-can't-deal-with-the-lack-of-sun-and-warmth-ANYMORE".
I live in the great state of South Dakota where it is hot in the summer and cold in the winter. I long for the days when my kids are grown and out on their own and I can migrate south. Someday.....
Post a Comment